Deciding decisions is distressing

I went to see Warwick on Wednesday but have been dreading writing this post and so have left it a few days. For a couple of weeks now I have delayed the inevitable decision making in regards to my firm choice of university course because 'it wouldn't be fair to decide without seeing Warwick' but now I have and I don't want to decide...

By the end of Wednesdays trip mostly all I could confidently say was that the campus was lovely and Warwick is closer. If I'm completely honest the distance is important to me. I'm not sure if this should be an important decision factor but the lunch with undergraduates at Warwick was so awkward it was almost painful! Worse than the one at Nottingham...


If life were easy I guess I would just scoop up the Nottingham physics department and put them in the middle of Warwick university but since that can't happen I'm supposed to make an actual decision... The one on one tutor meeting at Nottingham was something quite special that really made me feel relaxed and comfortable and like I was already at the university... I want to go to Nottingham!! But Warwick was all shiny and new and there was an actual climbing room and they have really exciting labs... I want to go to Warwick!!


So that I can take an extra long time making a decision I have started a complex colour coordinated table full of information about each university. Actually the research has been really useful because I hadn't realised but to stay on the main campus at Nottingham it is all catered accommodation whereas Warwick is all self catered. I don't really know what I'd prefer. On the one hand, self catered seems cheaper, healthier with more freedom but the catered is easier, quicker and maybe actually better as I won't be getting takeaways, eating out or having a diet of only biscuits due to laziness...

I can't tell if this is an instinct to root for the underdog but in most of the rows Warwick seems to be winning and I give a little mental cheer every time Nottingham wins. So what is that? Just to further complicate things my fortune cookie on Friday told me 'wherever you go, go with all your heart'.

I also seem to be spending an extraordinary amount of time day dreaming about actually going to either university! It has to be said that this has helped a little but basically just shown me that I would be perfectly happy at either, which although is a lovely thought it is completely unhelpful in decision making... Shall I just flip a coin??! Gahhh...