Unravelling the mystery of the Higgs

So prepare yourself for a stream of consciousness, I apologise in advance but lets be honest its only me reading this!!

I have heard that the Higgs boson is a force carrier which I understand to mean that it acts on behalf of the field. Like the driver of a bulldozer is the field but the bulldozer exerts the field, acting between the field and the particle under attack.  But this seems very abstract when I think of it where the bulldozer is virtual and is only sometimes there and the field isn't a person its just like a magnetic field and actually a magnetic field has an exchange particle of its own...

But then the Higgs itself even has mass so it must interact with the field itself but how because is there a higgs boson acting between the field and another Higgs and another acting between the field and this one and so on?! And then where does it stop because it surely cannot be infinite?

Then this video talks about how there is an electron field and in concentrated areas of this field electrons can be found. Which I guess is okay. But then the Higgs field is different because this video suggests that is the Field that we interact with.

But then mass and energy are equivalent. So how does that work? I never really like that idea because to me mass was a thing but now it isn't a thing so it should be easier, right?

I'm into the live stream already but the room is empty so far... Exciting! But I don't expect to understand... I'm starting to think it will be better to forget everything I've ever known...