Falling out of love

Every time I start a new term at university I think 'this time, I'll make time for my blog, this time I'll do it', and then it doesn't happen... You'd think doing physics most of the day every day I'd have plenty to keep this blog going but if I'm completely honest, this year has been a bit of a drag. When I was trying to think of the coolest thing I learnt this year, I honestly couldn't think of anything and that makes me really sad. I suppose maybe I feel this way mostly because my nightmare revision period has tainted my memory of the year.

My favourite module was my first optional one. It was mostly mathematical but we derived Newtonian laws and saw how they all tied together and I loved that. Not just taking things for what they are, really getting inside them and applying them in the ways I always have but in a way that seems natural this time. And then I always love learning a new mathematical technique that lets you get that bit further. It feels like getting a weapon on Zelda and moving up a level. But all that was half a year ago so I've half forgotten the excitement of it....

So yeah, next year will be better and I'm going to use this summer to fall in love with Physics again. And where better to do it than on this blog where it all started? And although I think of last year being the biggest struggle, I came out of it all with a pretty impressive 69% so it ain't all bad ;)

I'm also using this summer to work in an accountants office... I know, I know, it sounds like I'm selling out... And if I'm honest, I am. I desperately wanted a job this summer. I need experience for my CV, something to get me out the house and stop me going crazy, and sure the moneys nice. I've mentally spent it a thousand ways already. And trust me, anyone who's done audit commission work will tell you that daydreaming is the only difference between you and the computer on your desk...

Okay, I'm exaggerating a little, it's only been a week and I'm naturally an optimistic person. It's nice having the evenings and weekends free. I have learnt a lot this week and maybe it's not something that I'm particularly interested in but I do love learning. I'm a little less optimistic about the next 3 months but the people are nice and I get to see my family more than in term time. And my boyfriend is also in London, so as exciting as an internship in a German university would have been, this job does have its perks. He isn't a physicist but he's seen my blog and didn't break up with me so I reckon he's a keeper.

I did apply for many physics related internships but to no avail, I'm sure I'll talk about that some more later. I'm gonna be needing some posts to help me with all that this year.

I'm sorry that this comes across as a rather negative post but it's just the way it came out... I hadn't fully realised quite how tired of it all I had become... I suppose this summer is about fixing that! This is a good reference point I suppose...